Yesterday..

hais. ytd can be called de worse day of mye life.. but its ok.. the sooner i get to know the truth, the sooner i can get over it n forget it..

ytd was smsing n chatting with xin hui on hp while groceries shopping... asked her to help mi ask HIM if HE like mi anot.. when at pepper lunch waiting for my food to be served , zx called mi n ask if i like HIM ar.. i dunno what to reply.. if yes, its too obvious. if no, im practically lying. so i answered why ? n that obviously is YES.
so he said that he knew the answer already, and only wanted to hear from me personally.

i told him tat i call xin hui later to chat as my parents were with me at the moment..
so after i eat finish ler i call xin hui den zx call xin hui oso.. zx said tat he would tell mi a bad news.. saeing tat HE got a gf ler but i dun believe. if he gt gf ler jun sure will sae abt it de marh. i almost everydae tok to jun.. den by de way zx is saying, its not really convincing..

but i juz didn't reply after tat i talked to my parents n siblings.. zx n xin hui were quite worried as after i heard it , i wasn't sad at all.. but i was deeply hurt on the inside of my heart.. becos if he lied, he is trying to not hurt me so much by saying HE dun like mi.. so its juz still the same as i expected.. but at least he talked to me before my bday n completed my wish..

den i went shopping for shirts with my mum n sis , my dad n matt were pissed off as they had to wait outside the shop with the trolley.. hahas.i bought 2 shirts, my mum bought 1 n my sis bought 2. 1 for her bf..

then went home lerhs. come home we pack the groceries n then i on com to plae.. chat wif xin hui den zx oso tok to mi.. but i ignored him for some time.. no idea why.. but i dun feel like talking to any1 from that family A.T.M. (at the moment) ..

when my parents weren't ard i actually cried abit. cos tats the only way to release my stress n anger.. + im hurt..my heart was broken into many pieces.

then i rushed my mindmap ler.. do it for afew hours then its complete! finally! but i still nid to go do my DnT.. haiz..

den i went to slp at 10pm and woke up this morning 6.30.. the hurt was gone already.. tat was gd.. but i cant forget the memories n de feelings for him.. can someone advice mi?