havent been posting for awhile.
im feeling very low now. don't ask me why. just a sudden feeling.
many things changing around me, im also changing.
but im changing for the better right? only some parts aint..
my studies (maths) is deproving. but im better in geo .. ^^ hahas. miss candice tan said that im also another geography textbook. lols. same as geok fei(2n1)..
well. i used to be a geography textbook. geography was very interesting and fun last year.
but i seem to lose interest in many things this year. like science? maths?
im feeling very moody.. today went home earlier cos of that.. i feel like im being ignored.
and i hate this feeling. people who are close to me should understand how i feel. eg. douce. my ganlaopo. <3. she understands how i feel, often, we feel the same .. and many other things happen to us together. like our bendans. hahas.
i do hope things can change for the better.
why i hate being ignore :
1. the feeling.. its very very hard to take it and.. i'll cry cos i will onli feel that because the person is close to me.
2. i need a listening ear, and a shoulder to cry on. yet their ignoring me . i cant take it anymore.

... there are many more.. but im lazy to list all of em.

i haven't been my self lately.. thats all i can say. my temper is becoming worse, my good friends aren't talking to me, people that i dont know are appearing into my life and taking the place of some people. ( its not to everyone. onli certain people.. don't be offended if you think you are the new people who are appearing when you're not. )

anyways. mi and him have been talking about a topic related to _ _ _ _. and it might be happening soon x.X

3guys appeared into my life once at a time, some long forgotten but suddenly reappeared.

1st guy is several years older than me. is working. he's not emo or anything, likes to joke around with me, has a sweet mouth. ;P. his words are often covered with honey.

2nd guy is violent, a playboy. but he protects the people whom he loves very much. because of that, he's often getting into trouble. 1year older than me.

3rd guy is someone whom i used to like. 1year older than me too. but he's rather selfish. as in that when playing games, he'll most likely care about himself first. hard to elaborate.

i've already given up on the 2nd guy. now its the 3rd guy im giving up. i hope that he treats me well. i cant imagine living without him. without the 1st guy, there won't be the mandy lee now , & last year. thanks for being with me..

sometime, i feel like just suiciding or leaving the world. but i cant bear to leave you behind. you're the closest to me. iloveyou <3

you've even created your OWN version of IMY!hahas! iMUACKSyou.. lols. cute.. <3