2nd anniversary..

Today's my 2months anniversary with him.. but, it isn't a happy day..
i've been crying... like a baby.. but, i cry because im hurt..
he's been trying to get into zakum.. for 3 days straight.. ( inclusive of today)
and for those 3 days.. i cried.. i felt like crying forever, because the hurt is too pain..
too pain that it's unbearable..

1. he goes on msn
2. logs out after awhile without talking to mi
3. i thought that he dc-ed
4. after afew hours, i went on maple, and saw that he is at zakum entrance..

what's he trying to say / prove? ignoring me?? i'm crying as i'm typing this now..
i login maple he also don't talk to mi.. need i ask him things den he reply..
my mind has been going wild for these few days.. yesterday when i cried, zhi jun just nice called me and he can hear that im crying.. he asked me why i cried but i didn't wan to answer.. then zhi xiang said that he ditched me. watch what you say pls.. i dont wan that to happen.. i love him alot.. the happiest thing that happened after whad happened between me and zhi jie, is being with him.. he has brought much happiness to me. but, at the same time, he brought some pain too.

I love you.. If you love me too, why are you hurting me? i have many questions pondering in my head..
do you really love me?
can we really be together forever?
will you wait for me for a five years??
after 5 years, will you still love me?

im really sad right now.. why does he need to be like that..?
crying is the only way i can release the pain and hurt i have right now..
crystal jie, i really need some advice now..
douce,thks for chatting with mi even though you have some problems with you.. they are really identical twins.. ignores us, plays dota , maple , doesn't play audi , likes us, not replying us most of the time, hurt us, makes us cry..

i love you..
do you feel the same for me?

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